Beginners!

…is the motto of this year’s „Tage der Transformation“.
I feel very honored to contribute with my music. Thank you Globart and Jakob Brossmann for the invitation! I am looking forward to working with people who have been inspiring me with their own works in the last years.

The topic is quite accurate for me personally. Lately I find myself in unfamiliar terrain very often and I feel like an absolute beginner at so many occasions. It’s an ambivalent state. There’re pleasure and excitement about the newness of things but there are also fear, uncertainty and sadness about losses that seem to be an inevitable part of all beginnings. There are days when I’m overjoyed by a new sense of freedom, and there are times when I’m overwhelmed by it. Then I doubt if I’ll be able to endure the state of beginnings and the big portion of insecurity and instability that come with it…

However, recurring beginnings are also part of my artistic work. As an improvising artist I’m intentionally looking for that state of mind - the beginner’s mind, because I’ve experienced its potential for creating new music. But the ambivalence stays: inspiration and motivation as well as doubt and fear. In my work I try to deal with it playfully and to embrace it as part of the game…

How do YOU feel about being a beginner? How do you deal with it?